2.5.25 hard day for both of us and i'm in my feelings and in my hormones (because apparently i will still have the same monthly hormonal fluctuations that i had before my hysterectomy, so it's like a period without the bleeding and cramping but I'm still breaking out and super emotional and i also realized that i've missed a few days of my meds as well so all of that combined meant multiple instances of crying and feeling anxious and overwhelmed and frustrated and irritable) and liam has covid and jack came home from school early and i hurt g's feelings and today was a lot. but we handled it together and we were here for each other and we communicated well so while it was hard it was also good to see that growth we were looking for something on netflix and i saw bo burnham and just instantly started crying and asking if we could watch it. i knew it would be comforting and i was right. i joke about bo burnham being part of my spiritual awakening but he really was/is such a significant part of my healing journey and i think i need to write about it in terms of what that will look like, i have no fucking clue. 2.9.25 Watching [[Inside]] while speed running my healing as an artist, jfc. 8.30.25 Watching The Inside Outtakes and it's comforting and also affirming seeing another artist grappling with some of the same things that I'm dealing with.