Streamlining my work so that it is as convenient as possible and that I'm setting myself up for success as much as possible (this will require some work on my environment - decluttering so that I am able to focus and feel more at ease) 7/5 1:44 am Closed some cycles, leveled up. I feel it and I'm so very grateful. I have been slowly getting back into work, both interacting with clients and creating in that space. It's such a relief to finally be in a place where I'm not trying to hide my body. Still having very big feelings about my boobs and it's making me consistently sad. I'm going to start saving for a boob job/breast lift. I want to go to a consultation soon, get all the relevant info, find out what my options are and how much it will cost etc. This is necessary for me to feel comfortable in my body both physically and emotionally. Yesterday I asked the universe for swift abundance from multiple sources and then I received it. Fast and hard and it was intoxicating and intense and I was up till almost 6 am, drunk on power oof. I can't do that work for much longer, it's not good for my mental health. (I see it now. The ways this work was more of a crutch for me than an avenue for empowerment. I also see how it became an avenue for healing and helping others to heal. There's no denying that part of myself and I don't want to. I’ve done enough work in that space though, I can do more good elsewhere.) September Check-In Finally hit the savings goal for our trip! Right at the buzzer lol but I did it. I need to start a new LLC for Sovereign Sounds, create a logo, and just start attending local events in that community and making friends. I see the need for more community with other artists, healers, autistics, and queer folks. Holley introduced me to her friend Kelly, she was fun and kind and cool, she works as a DJ and knows some people who do women's retreats. I'm interested to learn more there and I want to start offering a free sound bath once a month for women in my community. Still need more structure around work work and my writing. Going easy on myself because I know what I've been through over the past 9 months and I know it was all necessary to get to this point. October Check-In: Writing steadily, moving into editing mode and starting to post some things to the site. Still not doing much work work, I still feel clenched when I do it. I'm listening to my body and not pushing myself too far.